So for a very long time now I have been fighting this in my head. I have been struggling with this addiction for years. It in many ways directs my life. I make decisions based around this addiction. In years past I devoted seven or eight hours a day to this addiction. It consumed my life. God brought it to my attention that I had a problem. He told me to quit it. I tried to reason with Him by reducing my consumption. I told Him that it wouldn't be that bad if I didn't use so much of my time for my addiction. So, in an effort to appease God I reduced my usage back to only a couple of hours a day. Still, a couple of wasted hours each day is a lot combined. So, I reasoned with God again with all the positives of my addiction. The high points of how it was helping me while ignoring all the points where I was choosing it over Him. So maybe you know me well and have figured out my problem. If you don't then you should know that I am addicted to Facebook.
I can see you shaking your head at me thinking THAT is not a serious problem. Well, for me, it has been for so long. It started back in high school when I was not the outgoing social butterfly that I am now. I went to school, did my homework, read books and played computer games - usually the ones on Facebook where you compete with your friends. I was the QUEEN of Farm Town - not Farmville, but the original-Farm Town. I also mastered most of the "Tycoon" games among others sadly. I remember one point where I had to go out of town for five days and being so utterly distressed about my virtual crops dying in my absence. Don't make fun of me for being honest, OK? That was probably four years ago when I began to feel the first nudgings from God that I needed to stop this. I just stopped playing the games. That should make Him happy. As my friend list grew and grew as I met more and more people, I needed longer and longer time to keep up with them all. I did know them all; at least I wasn't adding random people I didn't know. Then, this continued on for several years. Then, last summer, I was feeling more and more convicted by God so I decided to go on a friend purge. I had over 2200 friends. I deleted 1500 people! So, I thought this would make me feel better. It didn't. So, now I am finally ready to relinquish control of this whole thing and just stay off until He tells me that I can have it back.
I for so long have been unwilling to let God have His way with this part of my life, but no longer. I look forward to the free time that I will have to spend with the Father, my friends, for school, reading, writing, and lots of adventures. So, if you want to talk to me, then text me. If you don't have my number, then email me your number : jessicaspaid@gmail.com
So, friends, let's hang out face to face not just on Facebook.
Awe...people actually get counseling bc of addiction to FB. You are not alone chica. I am so proud of you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to see that you recognize the spiritual struggle between Jesus and Facebook. Even though FB by itself isn't directly sinful, it gives us the opportunity to have a glance into another person's life and totally and utterly look down on them.
ReplyDeleteI know, for a fact, that I spend more time on fb than praying. There's something really really messed up with that! Just sayin'. ;)